Valefor

Mom called me today. I guess the MRI looked… really bad. Grandma has really, really bad brain damage from the accident… even if she were able to make it through, she would never be the same person again. I’m not even sure if she would be able to manage on her own like she used to… mom did not give me any explicit details about it, nor did I ask. But based on how mom was acting, I’m sure it was not something grandma ever would have wanted… Mom has made the decision to remove grandma’s breathing tube, because grandma would not want to live that way at all… we all know that.

At the same time, it’s really hard… knowing we are going to lose her soon. The doctors do not know how long it will be, really… from a few hours to a few days. She will continue to breath on her own as she has been all this time, when they take the tube out… we’ll have just to play it by ear I guess.

The good news of today is I went to UMass earlier for an interview for a possibly summer job. 12 dollars an hour up to 40 hours a week. It looks like it will be great… doing a lot of stuff relevant to my major too. I’m just not in the mood to give any details. Maybe next time.

Sooo my 5th main alt is a druid. My druid was level 49 so I decided to take advantage of that for a little while and do some Warsong Gulch!

My moment of glory (and “I told you so!”) came toward the end. It was 2-2 and both flags were out. Our flag carrier was hiding near the exit to WSG - a level 44 hunter had it. I waited nearby while praying he would remove Aspect of the Cheetah. (For some reason, they NEVER DO!) Then he whispers me “go get flag”. So I told him…. no. If I stay there I can heal him and grab the flag if he drops it. Then he says “If you don’t go I’ll just give it to you.” But then he doesn’t give it to me and just stands there… whatever. Couple of minutes later, like 7 horde swarm us and of course the hunter dies. I grab the flag, pop into cheetah, and start running. The rest of my group met up with me, and while 2-3 people went to the horde base to get our flag back, I stood at the front of my base with everyone else in bear form. Every horde wave, we completely stomped and then I returned the flag!

In your face, hunter We would have lost if I’d listened to you!

Our priest was good at what she did but only when she actually chose to do it. The game was funny - the first time we had the horde flag, she stayed with the flag carrier and what do you know, we were able to drop the horde carrier and return our flag and wipe the floor with every hordie who attacked us. Then the second time we had the flag, she was nowhere to be found. We lost it and the horde got a capture. Next time around, she was there, we got a capture. Next time she was not, horde got a capture. See a trend???? She was also there in the group with me for the final capture, and what do you know, we were able to get it! Just seems silly… I had asked her during the two times she wasn’t with us if she could come with us and help heal. She isn’t even full shadow-specced (she’s holy at least to Spirit of Redemption) and maybe had no points in shadow at all. She got completely rolled every time she wasn’t with the carrier because she was always off by herself! It was very frustrating. And she never listened when we asked her to come help and she wasn’t already (we were asking politely too).

Buuuuut whatever We did end up pulling through with a win. This is only my second win in the 40-49 bracket (and I have done many games) so I decided it was time to move on… I’m now level 50 Thanks to my buddy Tendermuffin helping me through the elite quests in Searing Gorge <3 Obsidion was still really tough, even with a rogue with epics up the butt I just stayed and healed him, almost died twice from healing aggro (he has a wing buffet-esque ability which lowered tender’s aggro so he hopped on me a couple of times) but it was fun!

Okay yeah.. I’m a geek.

Sort of throws off the sad-ness of my previous entries a bit?

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I love these little kids - they are SO CUTE. And they look just alike T_T I can’t tell them apart except by personality. (One is very shy and one is very adventurous)

Mom is taking care of these little guys - they were strays (along with their mom). Someone else is taking care of the other two… there were five, but the dog officer who was getting them couldn’t get the fifth

EDIT: Oh yeah, other good news - my grandma opened up one of her eyes today Her other eye is probably still pretty swollen… she still doesn’t directly respond to people (she responds to the sounds of our voices and to some physical contact, but doesn’t do things on command - “squeeze my hand” etc. Hopefully she is slowly getting better… she had a scary episode friday morning, but it seems to have passed. And she’s also breathing a bit on her own (she is being helped by a respirator still). Mom is going to a meeting tomorrow to discuss more things… she said she’d call me and let me know what is going on later tomorrow.

I had a dream that I was raiding on my dwarf pally (Shealyn from Bronzebeard, and she’s only level 15 right now but oh well) with Aegis Uprising on Mannoroth and I had both her and my priest (from Stormrage) logged in at the same time. I was worried because none of the other pallies would tell me what buffs I had to do. And my only group buff was called something weird so I couldn’t tell what buff it actually was (it ended up being blessing of light).

I know, I know. I’m so weird

That probably makes sense to about 2 people on my friends list.

Still no big changes in my grandma’s condition. I did go to see her today though (yesterday I did not). She LOOKED a lot better. She was a lot less swollen and they had cleaned her up a bit, got the blood out of her hair and whatnot… I held her hand for a while. I was scared to when I visited her a couple of days ago because I knew she had a lot of broken bones and I didn’t want to hurt her at all, but her left arm isn’t broken.

Mom has already been approached about taking her off some things (that are helping to keep her alive right now) and I’m really offended by that. She was only hit two days ago… give her TIME. They also approached her about operating on her broken bones to fix them (they are broken too badly to be fixed normally…), but mom doesn’t want to put grandma through that just yet… just in case. We are going to wait after the weekend to see what to do about her broken bones.

I am trying my best to be optimistic, but it is difficult. She does seem a bit more aware… but she has not opened her eyes yet or anything. She responds to voices sometimes though… specific voices. I guess there’s this one woman she really doesn’t like (she thinks that this lady is just waiting for her brother in-law to die so she can have his money, she always talks about moving into “the house” after he dies… she doesn’t know my grandma doesn’t like her though), and that woman went to visit her yesterday. Every time she spoke to my grandma and every timme she touched her, grandma kind of squirmed and tried to pull away with her arms and legs. Mom thought at the time it was just that the morphine was wearing off. But today the exact same thing happened when that lady came to visit her again today.

The awareness like that goes off and on… probably between when she is actually sleeping or not. But, like I said, she still hasn’t opened her eyes. And they haven’t been able to do an MRI to see what kind of damage might have been done to her brain (catscans I guess aren’t as good as MRIs as finding the bleeding and everything), because she had that thing in her head monitoring the pressure, and it’s metal. They are removing that tomorrow… so maybe we will learn some more then.

I cried a little bit when I went to go see her today… it’s really hard to see her like that But I feel a lot better getting to see her than if I never did…

I guess the man who hit them is the grandfather of someone who is an EMT with my mom Their whole family has really been in a wreck… and the man that hit them is taking it really hard. I feel bad for him… it never should have happened but we don’t really know what caused it. He said he didn’t even see them, and he doesn’t really remember the impact now… I hope that my grandma and her friend make it through, for obvious reasons of course!, but also for this man. He really doesn’t deserve to be going through this when he’s 88 years old. It won’t change that they hit him, but it could lessen the weight on his shoulders a bit… The other woman is conscious, but she is no better than my grandma… her hip damage is really bad… people can die from just that, but she has bad head injuries too, so they can’t operate yet.

My journal entries have been bundles of joy lately I apologize… I just do not have much else on my mind these days.

Some happier stuff… I am going home (to sunderland) tomorrow, Shane is gonna give me a ride home when he’s coming back from work. Going to see The Da Vinci Code (which I hear sucks) and come back saturday morning. I played WoW and got my druid on Mannoroth to 49, and did a bunch of frustrating WSG and AB. No one ever supports the flag carriers The AB was good actually but only because it was 15 alliance vs. 12 horde and we rolled them. I did a really good uldaman run with Turin’s priest, Erin’s rogue, Olaine, Ridaya’s warrior, and of course my druid. I won an Archaedic Stone of Nature Resistance Yay AQ if I ever go.

I feel sick. I hope I’m not coming down with strep throat (brenna has it and I babysat her last night.) However, it’s probably a bit pessimistic that I have it, since I pretty much kept my distance from Brenna. If I’m getting sick, it’s probably mostly stress that’s doing it for me.

Gotta get working on the lecture I have to give later today… scary scary!

Then I have to get cracking on my Maya project which is barely done at all And study for my psychology test on tuesday (bringing my book to Chris’ house this weekend so hopefully that will work out okay). I also need to clean up some of the apartment because it is a bit messy

Friends when they come over need to learn how to pick up their dishes and whatnot, as well We live here so it’s okay if we forget to bring out dishes out to the kitchen (we usually do not forget). But guests are not allowed that luxury Please don’t trash our apartment!

This weekend will be a stressful one. Have to do a ton of modeling and animation for tomorrow. Maya project like I already said. Psychology test like I already said. And I’m sure there is more much exciting stuff to come! D: At least I no longer have to work on tuesday/thursdays

I need to find a job.

This entry was very disjointed, I apologize

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Thanks Miaka for the link ^_^

I’m very hungry so I’m going to make this pretty quick.

Last night, I went to the spring concert with Chris, Shane, and Tom It was fun! We missed a lot of the battle of the bands winner, then next was Swati (which was weird), then Dashboard Confessional which of course I enjoyed a lot. The Roots were afterward, I was really uncomfortable for part of it, but it wasn’t too bad. There was some pot smoke which made me cough a bit, but it wasn’t as bad as the first spring concert I went to D:

The LAN party was saturday, that was fun too Chris D. kicked our butts in DotA in the first game (he definitely plays at a level or ten above us :p). Andrew was cheap as he usually is… it was fun. Don’t really have much else to say… it was DotA playing pretty much the entire time. And wings. The cajun teriyaki ones were really good (I seriously don’t really like spicy stuff but this was a good-spicy and wasn’t that hot), and that other one that I can’t remember the name of parmesan something.

Anyway… yeah. I need to go eat

So apparently Todd F. (from high school) is getting married (for anyone who was there, I believe he is getting married to the same girl he was going out with in high school - I think I recognized her picture from the prom)! I saw the announcement in the newspaper when I went out to breakfast with mom/dad/Chris yesterday morning. How weird. I didn’t even really know it was him at first… the photo was really weird (very very dark so his hair disappeared), but aside from the fact that his last name is so unique I’m sure it would have to be him, it did mention he graduated from Lenox Memorial High School in 2002.

We used to be best friends (granted, it was a very long time ago) and used to play Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles together and play on my swings! It’s very, very weird to hear about people I went to high school with going off and getting married. Especially people I used to be close to once (I don’t remember why we stopped being friends, we didn’t have a fight or anything :P)

Sooo aside from that now This weekend I went home with Chris and we took care of the animals, while my mom and dad were out picking up Erin in Michigan. Friday night we didn’t do much, Chris did some work on the computer and I went on a guild run with DotA to a north Dire Maul tribute run It went really well, Veela picked up a Mindsurge Robe, I got a Redoubt Cloak and Elemental Plate Girdle of Shadow Resistance, Kumiho got a Barbarous Blade Only 1 blue was disenchanted (shaman gloves, sigh), and it was a really fun run overall.

Saturday we hung out at my house instead of going to Chris’ game party, my parents + Erin just got home really late the night before (1:30?) and Erin wasn’t even up by 12 or so. Mom made eggs and bacon and toast for breakfast and then dropped on me that she might have some crazy disease which isn’t that serious overall, but can cause you to stop intaking some nutrients from food, and it’s caused from eating wheat products. She doesn’t have the blood tests back to confirm that, though. Erin has been exihibiting some symptoms of it (constantly tired, depression, soreness of joints, etc) so if mom has it, she has to be tested, and if she has it, I have to be tested. I guess sometimes it doesn’t show up until pregnancy / other times later in life, so it’s possible I may have it I guess. I really hope I don’t though because, well no wheat products? No bread, no cookies, no cereal, no pizza? And tons of other stuff? That would really, really, really suck :/ I guess it’s a disease that commonly affects Italian and Irish people (something like 1/120 Irish and 1/300 Italian), and I have the blood of both in me

Anyway, trying not to worry about it in the meantime at least.

Sunday was Shealyn’s 2nd birthday She is soooo cute. Brenna is a brat sometimes but totally adorable as well I also got to see Jim and Shannon over the weekend, it’s probably the last time I will see them for a while They’re leaving in the middle of May (during my finals I believe) and going to Colorado I do hope Jim ends up liking it there, though.